Random rant

March 16,2008- Sundays are always good, and today was one of them. The weather has been nice and last night it rained. One of the good things about living in Loma Linda is that the hillsides in the spring time are an emrald green and they roll forever. Its really beautiful. Charlie and I went on a hike this morning and shortly after that I went to church with Sharla. It was good and today I was sustained as the new Young Mens Secretary in the Young Mens Presidency. I don’t exactly know what that means as far as my duties go but it does make me feel older and more responsible. I went to priests quorum and it was so awkward. I thought I would be better in a calling like this but I find myself being more nervous and insecure. In a way I find it difficult to serve these guys because I myself feel just like them. It doesn’t feel like that long ago that I was in their shoes and is almost too familiar. I guess the Lord knows best on the matter. Recently I’ve been thinking a lot on the different principles of my life that seem to be weighing on my soul the most. Things like what I want to improve on or what makes me happy or where do I see myself in the near future, only I’ve really been pondering more than usual on all of these things and to be honest it is stressful and nerve racking. Right now we live in one bedroom apt in southern California and by the grace of god have been able to make our 1100 dollar rent on time every month without being late.(Not to mention all the other bills that are due as well.) At times it can be ominous. Really I give Sharla all the credit because she is so talented with the finances.All in all its all good but I cant wait to figure out how we will survive for the rest of our life together….